Archive | September, 2013

Stressing

17 Sep

I’m a stresser. It’s what I do. It’s probably why I already have SO many gray hairs at the age of 28. Seriously, I have a lot. Maybe writing it all out will help me wrap my brain around it better and allow me to let go of a little bit of the stress. Maybe it’ll magically make those gray hairs disappear. No? Drat.

I’ve been stressing a lot about miss Rilyn lately. Things like her still not sleeping through the night, her needing to nurse before falling asleep, and her still not saying “mama”. She’ll say “dada” all day long, and also says “night night”, “uh oh”, and “that”. But no “mama”. Stubborn. Wonder where she gets that from.

Mainly, though, I’m stressing about the fact that this child is still refusing to drink out of a sippy cup! She’ll drink water here and there, but when I put breast milk, rice milk, almond milk, coconut milk in the cup, she’ll take a drink and spit it out, or take one drink and push the cup away refusing to take another sip. I’m not exaggerating when I say that I’ll put 3 ounces of “milk” in a sippy cup in the morning, and there will be JUST under 3 ounces a the end of the day. I’ve tried several different types of sippy cups, including straws, and regular cups without a lid. Nothing. C’mon kid! You’re killing me here! I’m not sure she’ll ever be a child that will drink 4-5 ounces in one sitting.

When Rilyn hit 8 months, I moved my nursing goal to 12 months with the plan to start weaning her after that. After dealing with supply issues while Lakyn was a baby (that only allowed me to exclusively nurse her until she was 4 months old), I’m extremely happy and grateful that I’m still nursing Rilyn at 13 months, but in all honesty, I’m ready to wean her.

When she turned one I decided that I’d like to have her weaned by Thanksgiving so that I could finally partake in all the dairy-laden yummies that the holiday is made up of. So, we set out to start weaning. I started offering R a cup of coconut milk (the so delicious brand of unsweetened coconut milk does not in fact, taste like coconut milk. In my opinion, it’s the most neutral dairy free milk substitute. It’s also the milk that Rilyn has taken to the best. Obviously, the word “best” is used loosely here) with all of her meals and at various times throughout the day. All to no avail. During this same week I also cut out one of her feedings to get the weaning process started. She did pretty well with it, but she never did any better with the cup of milk and she’s also not the best eater. Some days she’ll eat table food really well, but mostly she just picks and nibbles at it. I can’t figure her out. Except that she loves pasta. Any time I give her pasta she downs it. During this same week we had her 12 month check up with her doctor who voiced her concern about her weight. She was at the 50th% for weight around 6 months, but is now measuring at the 14th%. The doctor said we’d see what she’s measuring when we go back in (in two more months) and talk more about a plan of action, if it’s needed, then.

Well, that doesn’t sit well with a momma, now does it?

After lots of going back in forth in my own brain, and talking it out with Brandon, I’ve decided that I just cannot in good conscious wean Rilyn right now. I need to put my own selfish desire of FINALLY being able to get off this diet I’ve been on for the past 7 months aside and do what’s best for my child. I keep telling myself that it’s just one year where I’ll miss out on Thanksgiving food. Surely, I can handle that. I just don’t feel right about taking her best source of nutrition away (breast milk) when she’s not eating table foods well, and not drinking a milk substitute, not even breast milk, from a cup. So, I’ll continue nursing her hoping that it will help with her weight issues. I’ll keep giving her sippy cups as well, and I’ll continue wishing and praying that she’ll miraculously start drinking “milk” out of those cups.

Will you please do the same for me? Also, if you have any suggestions, I’m all ears over here!

**I should note that these events took place a few weeks ago and I’ve continued with the cup at every meal and throughout the day. The results haven’t changed.

Lakyn’s First Day of Preschool 2013

5 Sep

Before I start, can I ask a serious question?

Who decided that 1, 2, and 3 year olds need to go to preschool? I’m struggling with this a bit. I feel like kids should be allowed to just be kids, to play and be happy for those first few years before they HAVE to start going to school every day, every year. I only went to one year of preschool, Brandon didn’t go at all, and we turned out just fine. On the other hand, there’s so much pressure here in Johnson county. If you don’t have your 1.5 year old enrolled in THE best preschool in town, if they can’t recite the preamble to the constitution by age 2, or know the quadratic equation by age 3, they’re destined for failure. Puhleeze!

I wrestled with these feelings for months, literally, before finally coming to a decision. A compromise. I ultimately decided that me feeling like she needed to be in preschool was stemming from the idea that “everyone else is doing it” and that obviously isn’t reason enough. But I’m a parent and I needed to take my child’s needs in account as well. My reasons for getting her into something were that she’d greatly benefit from: social interaction with peers her age, a structured day, and learning to listen to adults that are NOT mom and dad.

Would she learn those things from preschool? Absolutely. But let’s face it, Lakyn already knows everything she needs to know for kindergarten (and in some areas, well past K). Then there’s the money issue. It’s kind of expensive, y’all, and when I’m already on the fence about preschool, this matters.

So what’d we do? We found a parent’s day out program from the recommendations of friends. She’ll do that this year and it’ll transition nicely to an actual preschool class next year. We still call this school, though, because we can. Because Lakyn is excited about school, because it’s simpler. L and I went to tour her new “school” a few months ago and met the teacher. She didn’t want to leave! So to be fair, this is not technically preschool, but it’s set up like one with a theme for each week, show and tell, and of course, recess. She goes one day a week on Thursdays. The only drawback for me is that it’s all day. 9:15-2:15. I have to fight the urge to go pick her up early because I miss her. I must remember that she’s having a blast and likely will not want to leave when I show up anyway. This is going to be great for her.

And I suppose it’ll do me some good, too. I know I’ve got to “cut the rope” eventually. I can’t keep her locked up with me all the time, she needs to explore the world on her own as well. I’m also looking forward to having one-on-one time with Rilyn, too.

So, enough about the technicalities, here’s our girl on her first day of school!

 

I cannot wait to go pick her up and hear about her day! Hurry up 2:15!