Diet Update

30 Oct

There’s a reason I don’t allow myself to get excited/my hopes up for the outcome of certain things. Its my way of sheltering myself in case its a huge letdown. I should have known better, but things were going so well with adding foods back into my diet and introducing them to Rilyn. I guess I just got carried away. Regardless, it all came to a halt tonight.

Rilyn reacts to soy. She hasn’t had any directly which means her intolerance is strong enough that she’s reacting to soy in my breast milk.

I’m on the verge of tears. It’s been 8 months since I’ve had any trace of dairy. No milk, no ice cream, no butter, no cheese. And up until recently, I hadn’t had any soy since March. This week we intro’d soy back to my diet and tonight Miss R’s diapers were back to the way they once were. If she’s reacting to soy, my hopes are not high for dairy. In fact, there is no hope. None. I’m 99% sure dairy will be a no-go.

Cue the tears.

I’ll be fine in the morning, but tonight I just need to have a good old fashioned pity party.

I miss pizza. I miss being able to make casseroles. I miss chinese food. I miss baskin robbins. I miss not having to read the ingredient label of every freaking single item I put in the cart. I miss not eating out at restaurants/date nights with my husband. I miss not having to shop at 3 different grocery stores every week.

I will NOT miss our grocery bill being outrageous.

I will NOT miss the constant worrying over cross-contamination, or about Rilyn finding foods she can’t have.

It’s been hard, but what’s another few months, right? Surely I can handle a year without Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners and desserts. Right?

It’s been hard but I’m trying to look at the bright side: at least I’ve added fish, shellfish, tree nuts, peanuts, beef, gluten, and eggs back. And of course, I’m helping Rilyn. I’d do anything for that munchkin.

Obviously.

Eventually I’ll be able to enjoy all the previously mentioned, but until then there’s Enjoy Life brand chocolate and coconut milk ice cream.

And I’ll be avoiding the food boards on pinterest.

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