A True Blessing

12 Nov

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I’m not sure if it’s the time of year, or that she’s turning two soon, but lately I can’t help but sit and stare at Lakyn. I knew my life would completely change once she was born and I knew that I was going to love her. No doubt in my  mind. But no one could have put into words just how much, how strongly, how deeply, how differently I would love her, or that all of those feelings would intensify greatly with each passing day. You just can’t. It’s not possible to explain something like that. It’s something you feel, and man, do I!

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I’ll be sitting next to her on the floor reading books, or watching her flip through the pages herself, talking about what she’s seeing, and I’ll randomly be so overcome by this feeling of love that I’ll start to get all choked up and teary eyed. After I breathe, the lump in my throat disappears and my vision isn’t quite so hazy, I think to myself, “I get to be her momma for the rest of my life. God chose Brandon and me to be her parents. He chose us for her.”…and then all those previous symptoms come rushing back. What an incredible blessing she is to me and her daddy!

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Everything about this girl amazes me. Her personality has really come out in the last few months. She gives this little ornery sideways glance that just makes me die every time. I love that she’s recently taken to walking on her tip-toes, everywhere.  She randomly asks to watch football on tv; this is how we know she’s definitely our kid! She also loves spinning in circles and she’ll do it just about anywhere. Reading books, singing songs, and putting together puzzles are a few of her favorite things. It’s amazing how much she picks up on in just a short amount of time. She remembers lines from songs that she’s only heard a couple of times, and I absolutely love hearing her sing “G-us (Jesus), this I know” from Jesus Loves Me. She can put a puzzle together in no-time, and she knows all of her letters, most of her shapes (circle, heart, star, diamond, oval, triangle, and rectangle), most of her colors, and most numbers 1-10. In a couple years, she’ll be smarter than me! It melts my heart when she giggles, stops to say “funny”, then starts giggling again, and she loves to swim in the bathtub. She’s also starting to hold conversations with us, recalling events from earlier in the day and you just have to hear her tell you “nope”. Yep. I’m one of those “moms”. The ones that think every. little. thing. their child does is the most incredible/adorable. thing. ever. Hello, my name is Afton. Nice to meet you!

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I can’t help it. I’m so proud of this little girl. I’m so proud of everything she does. She’s my beautiful little baby, my sunshine, my world. I could keep going, but I’ll spare you the millions of things I could say. Instead, you can reread the poem up above. I seriously love it; it might be finding it’s way into Lakyn’s room soon.

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And you can bet your bottom dollar that if I get all choked up and teary-eyed just watching her read her books, I bawl my eyes out when I watch this. I’m talking full on “ugly cry”.  Again, I can’t help it. I’m her Momma.

6 Responses to “A True Blessing”

  1. Jody November 12, 2011 at 11:33 pm #

    I had to comment on this one… I feel the exact same way, sometimes I go to bed thinking Leah is such a neat person and that I can’t believe I get to “hang out” with her for the rest of my life. I hope I always feel this way, even when’s she’s a teenager. And, I’m thinking it must be the fall weather or maybe it’s that they’re learning and changing so much, because I’ve had your same exact feelings a lot lately. Two posts, two comments from me, I’ll stop blog stalking now.

    • Afton November 13, 2011 at 2:31 pm #

      Jody, I hear you on hoping you still feel this way when they’re teenagers. With the ornery and stubborn moments I’ve seen from Lakyn lately, I think there’s a possibility her teenage years could be interesting! But either way, we’ll learn so much from the girls as they grow up! As for the blog stalking, I welcome it! :) Thanks for your comments!

  2. jodi November 13, 2011 at 10:12 am #

    Afton, this is so sweet! You have such a wonderful heart and I agree, your little baby girl is amazing and beautiful. That video!!! ahh! sweet!

    • Afton November 13, 2011 at 2:36 pm #

      Thanks Jodi! That video took us some time to figure out. I shot it and picked the music, then Brandon put it all together. After I had published the post, Brandon decides to tell me that he thinks the video might be too “memorial-like”. Like we made it for a funeral or something. FANTASTIC! So I’m really glad to hear you liked it and thought it was sweet! :) Makes me feel better!

  3. Tylie M November 14, 2011 at 12:43 am #

    You are the sweetest mom…and basically nailed parenting on the head!!!!

    • Afton November 14, 2011 at 3:39 pm #

      Thanks Tylie! I was hoping someone else would be able to relate to my feelings!

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